Bad moon sets, a new moon rises

How has my month been and what have I learnt?

So the month has finally come to an end and the tally puts me just shy of a negative $2000. This is my first loosing month in a long while and it has been a humbling experience. I remember reading a forum thread where winning high stakes players discussed how many loosing months they had. Surprisingly most of the players wrote that they had only had zero, one or two loosing months since going “pro”. So since the wind hit my sails in online poker I naively thought that loosing months were a thing of the past. Now I stand reminded that there is a reason why my bankroll is as big as it is, variance can be a killer if your not prepared.

Instead of trying to get back to even, I spent the last days of May studying the game. Going over hand histories looking for leaks, reading books and forums and cutting down on my multi-tabling. I have found that my initial loss from the first week of this month messed up my game somewhat. I have been shooting two barrels into passive players and gambling too much pre-flop. I somehow lost track of Sklansky’s theory, that I am here to make money of bad players’ mistakes. Instead of looking for bad players, fancy play syndrome had taken hold after some bad beats and I tried to win too many pots.
As I am writing this my game has really sharpend again, I am up $1500 sofar for the first two days of June. My confidence is back and I am focusing on making a profit instead of winning every pot.

However confident I feel though, this bad run makes me doubt that 20 buy-ins will be enough for my transition to NL $600. I expect the games to be tougher and I am sure I will be playing a bit scared at first.
Thanks for reading. See you at the tables.